YIKES.....
My friend Shawn has been saying for a little over a year now that he wanted to know what my "crazy" is. The reason he believes I am Sleepless in Detroit...so to say. Well I have been telling him that I am not sure what it is. If he can't see it then random men who see me on the streets clearly can't see it on first inspection and still, I get no play. NO PLAY.
Well...fast forward to this past week. A young man that I was "feeling" and I had a very awkward exchange. Things went from really good to not so good in the course of 30 minutes. I won't get into detail because as you know I like to protect the identities of the men I write about...I have no time to be all up in court. Plus, this city is so small that is this could be someone else's boo and then I will have another post ALL together.
We will call the man in this post Pepsi...because I am sitting here staring at a hot ass bottle of Pepsi on my desk and it makes me feel the way this situation made me feel....bad...all bad.
After Pepsi left kinda abruptly from what had been an awesome afternoon of laughing, talking and movie watching, I decided to send a text to figure out WHY THE FUDGE I was sitting on this here couch alone.
He gave me an answer that didn't really satisfy my soul and so after thinking it over all weekend I decided to ask again. Well Monday gave me the real answer. The paragraph long answer. The "oh wait I do that and you ain't feeling it".... answer. Basically he said (and this is hard to share with you all...because as a Capricorn we don't like sharing flaws) you came at me and never gave me the chance to come at you. You were.....AGGRESSIVE. Now this is no surprise in my outside of men life. I am in fact the kind of person that sees something and goes after it. If my heart is set on it I do what needs to be done to CONQUER. I however had not really paid much attention to the fact that I was doing this with men as well. YIKES!
I can already hear my bible waivers "It says a man who FINDS a wife..." yeah I know. I have a King James in my home. I also get in my head that men are suppose to chase women...not vice versa. However if no one is moving in on you are you suppose to sit there like a good little girl on the couch in your pretty dress, sitting still so you don't get dirty waiting to be rescued OR do you say I look good in this dress and dammit I am going out to create some dirt!
So here I am....Aggressive Candegirl wondering to myself: do I need to reevaluate the entire way I do business with men or do I wait for a man who appreciates my CAN DO (like my positive spin :-) spirit.
Oy vey....I have all the questions and not a single answer....
Peace and Love Candegirl
Musical Inspiration:
Artist: Queen Latifah
Song: When You're Good to Mama
