A Message About: The Blog

"It was January 1st and very Bridgette Jones style I was sitting alone in my house in a bath rob and thinking about my life(I am sure there was some wine involved). I was thinking about being single at nearly 30, a social butterfly, and a LOVER of Detroit among many other things and what all of that means to my daily walk. There are so many stories that come from those parts of my life that I believe are universal. So now I do these confessions, sometimes written articles mostly video's, that allow me to vent to the world all the things that make up this girl in the city. This is how Confessions of a Candegirl was born." Candice to Metromix on why she started Confessions 

If you are my friend, and honestly, even if you aren't, you will here me say one phrase over and over "The Blog". Like those people you know who are in new loving relationships who can't stop saying stuff like "The Baby", "The Husband", The Boyfriend". You could have introduced them to their husband and damn well know their name is not "The Husband", but they just can't help themselves. It feels good to have something that is yours. Something to announce to the world. Be it a baby, a husband, a boyfriend and in my case...a blog.

On that January day last year things could have been very different. I could have kept thinking of all the things I didn't have that I want. The life that is alluding me. Instead I started a blog. A way to connect to people who feel the way I do. Sometimes your own thoughts can make you think you are going crazy. You feel like no one else can relate to where you are, has walked in the path you are on or feels the emotions you feel. In reality nothing could be further from the truth. This blog has taught me that over and over. While I don't get many direct comments to the posts, I do get MANY FB inbox messages, emails and twitter messages. People opening up to me after I post something. Relating to me. Allowing me to see that I am not crazy. I am human. 

Often the messages make me laugh as people relive crazy relationships and break ups. From time to time I am brought to tears as someone shares how me talking about my mom helped them deal with their own loss. How about the phone call I received from someone I don't talk to very often offering to come and help serve at the Thanksgiving dinner I prepared for my grandparents. The persons mother was even willing to come and teach me the art of the Thanksgiving meal. These are people who HEAR me. 

I am writing this the morning after losing a blog award. Let me say this. Losing sucks. Don't let anyone tell you differently. People can act like somehow losing is something that doesn't matter, but it does. If I didn't care to win, I wouldn't have tried to win. You have to put on your "YEA FOR YOU" face for the winner and muster up the courage to hear people say "Girl you should have won", "YOU didn't win? WHAT" or "You'll get em next time" and not break into a three year old tantrum....BUT I WANT MY AWARD!!!

I woke up this morning still feeling a little less than perfect and as usual I logged onto FB and saw this comment under what I am now calling my concession status...."....and you still have an amazing blog...". Right...duh, I still have The Blog! It's like the first bad night after having a baby, getting married or with the new boyfriend. The next day the person does something that makes you remember why you are there. Why you love them so. Why you need them. Today I remember The Blog gives me a voice...and I am so thankful for that today... for having a voice that touches others is the best award I have ever received. Thank you. 

Musical Inspiration 

Artist: Maze featuring Frankie Beverly

Song: Reason

Peace and Love Candegirl