The Love That Won't Love You Back

Life is full of all kinds of love. The love of a parent for a child. The love of friends. New love...old love...perfect and imperfect. The love that I have most recently encountered and have had trouble shaking is the the love that won't love you back. You see all the signs that love exist in this space, that this love is meant to be yet the person on the other side of that love has no connection, call it bad love reception. 


This love brings joy at first and then one day you realize it. That while you are feeling one kind of love the person on the other end is experiencing an entirely different form of love, or worst....no love at all. You beg with yourself to stop loving the person. To move on. To grow a pair. You look for new hobbies, new addictions, new love, but when you get even a moment of quiet that love that has been so evasive pops right back in and consumes you. 


This love is like the toy you lose as a child and while you had tons of other toys to choose from, and you played with them,  secretly you long for that toy. I had a Barbie like that and I can honestly say that to this day I think of that Barbie and I often think that one day I will open up a box from my childhood and find that doll, though she has been missing for nearly 20 years. 


When it's a toy, holding out hope for 20 years doesn't seem so bad. When it is a person, another human with their own agenda, feelings and perhaps pursuits of their own unrequited love then you find yourself  at the mercy of this persons hold on your heart.


The thing is if the love you felt was real love, a real sense of belonging in someones world and them inside of yours how do let that go? How do you move on from that the place...that feeling?


If anyone has the cure for the love that won't love you back...send it to me, because I am ready for love that plays fair. 


Peace and Love Candegirl

Musical Inspiration
Artist: Erykah Badu 
Song: I Want You